I've not let myself think of you for awhile now. After all the time that's passed, I don't think I'm ready. In fact I think I am even more not ready today than back then when I didn't have time to sit myself to think because I just sat and felt. No thoughts. No figuring out. And now when I'm left with all the time in the world to sink it in, I don't want it anymore.
But you're everywhere. Even when I'm not thinking of you, I am thinking of you. Even when I can't see you I see you. Even when I can't hear you, I do. Still, forgive me, I keep looking away. I don't wanna feel you.
For the time being, please let me be. Until I'm ready.
Until I can let you, see me.