It's finally Eid. Selamat Hari Raya families, friends, fans (just to complete the F list, i know i have none)
It's been different, as expected. Abah and adik2 arrived noon yesterday, at Ngah's house, Uda and family came all the way from Jelebu to deliver lemang and ketupat and rendang...nyum, thanx a bunch sis. And so we had our last iftar together.
Then later we went to pick up our satay order at Samuri, did our last minute shopping at Tesco, puchased some Raya cookies at Plaza Metro and picked up a few more things from my place before we headed on home.
No cooking cooking other than some fried noodle i made for iftar. The rest was all ordered and fetched and delivered.
Came morning we got dressed, made ourselves up, packed a little of everything for our little picnic by Ummi's hospital bed, and off we went.
I was nervous truthfully. Couldn't predict how Ummi would be. Sad or quiet or possibly nothing of the sort or just plain happy. I brought her a pair of new blouse and pants just in case she felt like changing into something other than those loose blue top and sarung. And i didnt forget to bring her the bracelet i bought in Labuan recently. She loves jewelries.
On the way to HUKM we had to make a few stops still, so my lil bro and i were the last one to arrive. The first time i saw her when we got there, my worries vanished. She had already changed into a new baju kurung sewn by Kak Teh. She looked ready. And most importantly, she had a glow on her face and it took me some time to turn away. She had tears in her eyes oh yes they were there but she was glowing. We hugged. And this time i tried not to even think of anything or else i would end up crying like i always did on Eid. I couldn't cry then. She didnt wanna see us crying, i dont think.
She was happy. She introduced us to every doctor who was passing. That's Ummi. She knows everybody and everbody knows her. She's Ummi. One and only.
Then the picnic, by her bed. Makanlah kami seadanya di atas hamparan tikar brought from home. There were lemang, ketupat, rendang, satay and cookies delivered especially to Ummi's bed by Aunty Pet. We had a good time. No other patients were as celebrated as Ummi that early, that cheerfully, just her.
Then Ummi requested for my brothers to bertakbir a quiet takbir. So bergema lah seadanya, semahunya Ummi... and that's when she cried. I pretended not to see it. I didnt wanna feel it. I just let her be.
Ummi said she was happy. We could see that it's true.
But it's still quieter. It's still a different Eid.