This Syawal is going to be different for me. I'm not going home. There's no balik kampung this time. I wont be listening to those nostalgic Raya songs or getting melancholic reminiscing my childhood Raya years while driving through Karak highway this year.
In fact it's going to be different for all of us, my family and i.
And going home is not the only thing we wont have to do this Syawal. Langsir tak payah tukar. Bilik tak payah kemas. Pelita tak payah pasang. Daging/ayam tak payah tempah and periuk belanga + pinggan mangkuk can just stay where they are.
If doctors wont let Ummi leave her hospital bed for even one afternoon on Eid, we'll just have to celebrate Raya as meriah as we possibly can with her there.
Where ever she is, that's our home now.