I haven't been well. I haven't been well that it scares me a little. The headache that won't go away wakes me up every morning for breakfast only so that I can swallow pain killers right after. The fingers that are shaking and shivering make my handwriting wiggles like half-alive worms. And the panting and the short breaths I experienced just to get myself dressed after shower? They made me feel like I had run a 100 meter track to get my tudung on. And my bleeding nose yesterday? I don't know.
What is happening? Am I falling apart?